ultimate me!

2012-02-18T22:57:00.002+08:00

often...people around you would tell you 'you are not alone'
however...it is always the person you wished to hear from didnt say it.
at the end of the day..you are still all alone.

2012-02-16T12:56:00.002+08:00

'A true friend listens to you when you need it most, not just when it's convenient. They accept who you are without judging you.'

'A smile can mean a thousand words, but it can also hide a thousand problems.'

'My head says, “who cares.” But then my heart whispers, “you do, stupid.'

'I miss being a kid. No one cared how you dressed, we were all friends, and you could be yourself. When did we turn so judgmental?'

'Sleeping is nice. You forget about everything for a little while.'

'Silence is the best way to let someone know they did you wrong.'

2012-02-12T00:07:00.001+08:00

envy is the only word...
the only way to make myself better is to pretend that i dont care.

2012-01-18T21:31:00.002+08:00

love twitter, love 9GAG.

'You deserve someone who knows how to make things up to you after hurting you. Not someone who is very good with just the word, sorry.'

'I'm not even going to get mad anymore. I just have to learn to expect the lowest from people, even the ones I thought highest of.'

'Sleeping is nice. You forget about everything for a little while.'

'When a girl gives up, it's not because she doesn't love you but because she's tired of getting hurt & feels like you'll never care.'

http://9gag.com/gag/1887174

and this is funny.. hahaha... =D

2012-01-16T00:20:00.002+08:00

2012-01-15T00:00:00.002+08:00

'Friends are like balloons; once you let them go, you can't get them back. So I'm gonna tie you to my heart so I never lose you.'

Friends just make a big part of me..
i wonder what will i become without friends...
without them... guess i will not have anyone whom i can talk to...
whom is really concern..and rem-ing bits n pieces of what i said...

i really really want to say thank you to 2 special friends...
you 2 are really great friends...
always there whenever i needed someone...
i know they may not be able to see this... but.. really..
i appreciate it alot..and treasure our friendship.

ytd...i had a great chat w my friend...
my heart just feel so much lighten aft talking to you...
we may not have known each other many years...
but its really comfortable to talk to you.. able to tell you anything everything...
Thanks so much =)

2012-01-14T01:33:00.001+08:00

Romance can only be grown by a person who has the soil of tender, loving and care.

2012-01-11T23:49:00.003+08:00

That feeling is like the person came right in front of you... took salt.. and apply it on your wound.

I took alot of courage before i face it and decided to say it...
But...i wasnt given a chance.

*****

'Never be sad or upset if someone doesn't recognize ur worth. Consider it as their loss bcs people who don't value u don't deserve to know u.'

'Every friendship and relationship is bound to fall apart when people start keeping things to themselves.'

'Never chase anyone... A person who appreciates you will walk with you.'

'Sometimes you have to be your own hero, because the people you can't live without, can live without you.'

'Insecurity is an ugly thing. It makes you hate people that you don't even know.'

'When a girl asks a guy to listen to a song, it's because the lyrics are all the words she's afraid to say.'

'Love is a word, easy to say, harder to prove.'

2012-01-10T20:56:00.002+08:00

after completing day 2 of year 3 sem 2...
this sem.. i really feel the differences...
the intense... the content.. the lectures... just makes me cant breathe.
Major cores i selected was better than i expected..
of cause.. i believe other modules are like tt too...
RNA world.... Human Resource Managment... Functional Genomics and Proteomics...

somehow... when the classes was carried out..
i feel that i am totally lost and stressed up...
thinking...what can i do to survive this sem...

its only the start of day 2 of the semester...

*****

my day was brighten with the sweetness i had from u...
that 2 mins was short.. but filled with love.
wont it be great if it happens forever?

2012-01-04T00:04:00.004+08:00

My last day of 2011

*****

meet up with the my FYP gang.

been a long time since we last met.

2012-01-02T02:42:00.002+08:00

its a new yr again!
does everybody have a good countdown?
what's your new year resolution?

i just hope that i can be happier in the year of 2012.

love December! its always the best time of the yr!
always giving me a super happy mood =)

shall post pics soon...
time for bed...=)

2011-12-27T00:59:00.005+08:00

xmas is over...
2011 is coming to an end soon =)

during the last few days of the yr...
it is always time for reflection and recap what happen during this yr...

every yr.. there is bound to be times when u are upset..but not forgetting happy =)
it was a rather good yr for me...
with my trip to taiwan with my friends.
my unforgettable operation experience.
a super long period of time with his accompany during the holidays.

the best xmas i had this yr is my results =)
i am just so happy for the great improvement...
it may be nth to others.. but its worth a pat on a shoulder for me =)
and i finally manage to get my iphone on xmas~

this yr xmas was a rather simple and lovely one.
spending quality time with loved ones. whats more can u ask for?
but i do hope i have a chance to have a white xmas somewhere else at least once in my whole life! hahaa

and one thing i always wish...
time pass quickly!!! i wanna graduate!!!

kind of into the shopping spirit this december..
but.. ya.. i am still a student. this is bad.
went to Abercrombie & Fitch on xmas...
and gosh.. they really does have nice clothes!!!
the super soft quality and some nice yet special design...
of coz.. the price is even nicer.. hahaha...
i tout its gonna be like H & M..
apparently.. no. hahaa
the skirts and the shorts!
argh ='(
i need a wallet too!

my new yr resolution is to fast forward time so i can earn money!
sounds impossible. ='(

but yes... i wanna end my student life~

pray hard... it wont rain on new yr eve too!

*****

some pics to share =)

i love to have coffee and a piece of cake...always.

xmas lunch in auntie hse...
my auntie is a great cook...
and she is very into the atmosphere too...pics say it all.. hahhaa

star bread she made..

mango salad w scallop...

huge turkey...

desserts~

feels like 5 stars treatment? hahaha...

2011-12-23T23:52:00.001+08:00

memories?

cant bear to throw it?

focus! focus!

2011-12-22T14:33:00.001+08:00

dolphin tale is a great movie.
real life story.

www.seewinter.com

2011-12-22T01:12:00.002+08:00

ALICIA!!!!
you DID IT!!!!!

i just seriously did it this time round!
finally i see some work really paid off.. finally... THIS SEM.

2011-12-17T00:41:00.002+08:00

Successful relationships are not something that is built in a day. There are many factors that go into the making of a healthy relationship. Being intimate with a person does not always mean you shall connect in a better manner. Healthy relationships are all based on how well you connect even from within. A healthy relationship is one where both can be their individual self and also learn to accept each other with all the qualities and flaws.

Traits of a Healthy Relationship:

Having a healthy bond of friendship:
Having a bond of friendship between the couple is very necessary if you wish to have a healthy relationship. Couples that discover this beautiful bond end up knowing each other to a deeper level. Friendship is a bond that will help you to connect in various ways and considering your partner to be your buddy would help you to enjoy each other's company to the fullest. Being a friend can help you to care and share and understand each other in various other spheres of life.

Mutual respect:
For a relationship to be truly compatible in every aspect, couples need to maintain respect for each other. This respect can be towards one's career or any other issue related to life. The moment you display a sign of respect towards your partner and appreciation for what he/she is doing for you, it will only help to strengthen this very special bond you share! Mutual respect only helps a couple to grow in a relationship.

Affection and intimacy in a relationship:
The right levels of affection are required in a relationship in order to strengthen the bond. Although physical intimacy is required, it does not always mean there is no other way to express your love. A simple 'Love You' works wonders when your partner is having a hectic schedule. You might be surprised how well a tight hug can keep couples more connected. A healthy relationship therefore can be gauged when couples share a lot of affection and are intimate with each other no matter how busy the schedule may appear.

Honesty and building the trust factor:
Honesty between a couple helps to bring them closer to each other and also know more about each other. For any healthy relationship, it is necessary both partners are completely honest about their opinions about all issues in life. Honesty will help to build the right amount of trust in a relationship and couples can even learn to value each other's opinions and beliefs. This will in turn help to develop the right levels of respect for each other.

Sense of Humor:
Laughter can sure be a great way to ease things between couples. Having a great sense of humor and being able to share funny moments help to take the relationship to a new level. Having the perfect sense of humor without really hurting sentiments of people around you is one of the traits that go into the making of a healthy relationship. It also helps couples to overcome difficult situations with more ease.

Perfect Communication:
A relationship would require you to constantly communicate with your partner and get one's feelings across. Communication is required so that couples can understand each other perfectly and also avoid misunderstandings from being created. With proper communication, a healthy relationship is possible without any added hassles! There could be no other better way than to express your feelings before your partner and also gain his/her confidence in due course of time.

******

All this is really important to have a good relationship.
Honesty. Communication. Friendship. Respect.

*****

sometimes...i wonder how some people can be so cruel and selfish.
sometimes... some people just need to put themselves in other people's shoes.
sometimes... some people just have to think before they act.
that because...they have no idea how much harm they cause to people unknowingly.
they have no idea how much tears the others has fall over their actions.
at the same time, the find themselves so blessed and so loved..loving that feeling...not realizing...the each time they have this loved feeling..the other party have double the hurt feeling with endless of tears flowing every single day. ='(
how can some people exists?
how can they be so selfish?

who am i actually?
these actions feel like i doesn't really exist.

2011-12-15T13:42:00.000+08:00

一醒来就好希望全部是一梦。
但却发现原来都是事实，心好痛好痛好痛。

2011-12-14T21:23:00.001+08:00

天亮了, 但感觉就像时间停留在同一晚。
好怕受伤。
就好像在同一个地方不停的刺。
那些画面就好像一直重复。
想跟我说原来我好像不存在。
我好讨厌晚上。
又有谁了解累但睡不着的感觉？

2011-12-14T01:10:00.002+08:00

我觉得心好痛。这种感觉就像被人抛弃。

就算不在也沒人会心痛。

好想没事跟我说。

人家常常说。。。'one of the best relationship is when your the other half can be your best friend too. Sharing everything and anything' =)

我感觉到了，I aint your best friend yet.

关心，好像都要提示才有。

毎一次留下的只是矢望。

我感觉到了，我真的一点也不重要。

我什么也不是，也许我来得不是时候。

也许你觉得可惜, 错过了彼此。

也许你在逃避，那些都昰藉口。

也许我是你的負担。

也许我该离开。这样也许你会更快乐。

2011-12-10T01:46:00.001+08:00

i dont ask for alot...
i just need someone to talk to me. =)

2011-12-09T00:12:00.001+08:00

i feel so bored and lonely this holiday.
everybody seems busy.
seems like there is no one i can talk to.

2011-12-08T22:51:00.000+08:00

a new look.
i done my best.. this is all i can do.
hahaha=)

2011-12-03T00:29:00.000+08:00

all men out there...

spend some quality time reading this..

this is true =)

http://lifestyle.xin.msn.com/en/sex-relationships/article.aspx?cp-documentid=5590383

2011-12-02T12:55:00.002+08:00

ok....one aft another...
endless.....

who does report on the last day of their exams?

what majors shld i take nx sem??
hmmmmmmmmmmm
drug d is a must! hahaha...

functional genomics and proteomics??
stem cells??
RNA world??
membrane structural biology??
biological functional behavior sounds fun!

not much choices!

2011-12-01T00:31:00.001+08:00

'When a woman is silent, she's either over thinking, tired of waiting, falling apart, crying inside, or all of the above.'

'As long as u feel pain, you're still alive. As long as u make mistakes, you're still human. & as long as u keep trying, there's still hope.'

'As we grow up, we realize it becomes less important to have a ton of friends, and more important to have real ones.'

2011-11-28T02:38:00.002+08:00

fairy tales do happen...
but it just dont happen on me..
not even a tiny one. ='(

what's new?

2011-11-16T02:04:00.002+08:00

maybe mum is right... i will lead a hard life if this continues...
maybe dad is right... one day i might regret...

somethings are just not meant for people to say it out straight into face...
sometimes...it depends on the other parties to take the effort to find out, to understand and know about it...
apparently, some take the effort to find out about the truth...while some others just prefer not to face the reality or tend to wait for others to tell them every single sentence and words.
however, there are certain things that are just not easy to be form into words and say it to others.
often, we put in hopes. Hoping that they will find out eventually...
At the same time, there are times it turns out to be a disappointment...
As time passes by, we tend to give up when we reach our limits...
And also, these are the times we tell yourselves we need to be stronger...

I always thought... in a certain period of time in our life..we tend to send goals or plans to motivate ourselves...
Sometimes, it could be your family, your friends and even your loved one that motivates you to accomplish your goals...
However...I realized this doesn't apply to some people...
Or maybe..they just couldn't find that thing..that one thing which makes them drive their motivation....
I believed...as long as a person had something important to them in their life.. the motivation will come naturally =)
Not forgetting....action always speck louder than words...
Words can be said by everybody, anybody...
But.. it is the action that let the other parties feel...yes...i really know you meant your words.

Overtime, I learn to depend on myself instead...
Who can you trust?
Who can you depend on?
Who is willing to let you depend on?
I don't have an answer...
Always, it is better to depend on yourself.
Once, I told my friend about this ' ****** ***** ** ***** **** ****** **********'
he said...you are so different...
I wish...I could be the same like any of them...
But, who is willing to let me be the same?
Who can i depend on?
Times when you cant find an answer...you know...only you can give yourself happiness...

All along, i been trying hard to defend their statements..
I try I try I try
I defend I defend I defend
I cried I cried I cried
I said I said I said

But now, as each day passes...I start to agree with them...
Teach me how to defend.
Give me a solution.

2011-11-14T23:42:00.003+08:00

DUMB DUMB DUMB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHO CAN BE MORE DUMB AND STUPID LIKE YOU?
SERIOUSLY...HOW DID YOU EVEN MAKE IT TO UNIVERSITY???
U JUST HELL NOT SUITABLE TO STAY UNIVERSITY...
DUMB AND STUPID!
USELESS CRAP!
JUST PURE STUPID AND NTH ELSE!
STUPID GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NTH IS GOING WELL THIS SEM!

i need a big cry.

2011-11-14T23:26:00.001+08:00

you know what? just forget it! FORGET IT!

2011-11-14T16:32:00.001+08:00

不要因为一只老鼠而放弃了你的虫，青蛙，鱼和fly。我可以的！！！

ROAR!!!! developmental biology!!!!!!!

2011-11-13T23:50:00.003+08:00

i have 2 modules tt are pure CRAZY!
@)$&()!$*!)_%!&$*!($@(*)!U!JB@JRFN@O$!)*!($*!_(*!$P(

and they comes w short/ long qns... like WHAT!!!???!!!!!
($&!$)*!)()#*!$)_!$(!_+$)!_%*!)(%U@(RFJ@*U!*$!$

even the profs have difficulties rem all the facts when they teach us..
hw to they expect students to rem every single thing?????????
$@&$!()$*!)I@(#@PHJEC@$()$&)!(~$&!_!$*!*$!)_$*!)$*!$*_$!$_!$*!$

stop. they just teach their respective lectures...
but we rem EVERY lectures!
_$(&!)_$*!)_$(_$+!$O)_KD)DK)QI!)!*!)*($*!($*!()UJDIJ()QUE(!*$)_(!)+#(~#)DQID_I)QFJ(QWR*)*$!$*_!$*)+E(_)EI!)_$I)_()_!$IE_!#!(#_!

2011-11-08T23:50:00.000+08:00

Had ichiban for lunch. with cheese cake as dessert.
followed by strolling around the mall at a slow and quiet pace.
Bought 2 clothes again!
Bought RUFFLES CHIPS~!
Not forgetting some sour and sweet sweetss~!

how good can the day be. =)
just the right break at the right time aft massive revision for past days...

damn. i am easily contented. hahahah =D

2011-11-07T01:32:00.004+08:00

seriously....
sometimes..i just love phases and sentences said by ThreeBigWords & TheNoteboook in twitter...
they just speaks up what i am thinking about...

let me show u some...

'The best relationships are like Tom & Jerry. You may tease each other, irritate each other, but you can't live without each other.'

'Mistakes are part of life, everyone makes them, everyone regrets them. But, some learn from them and some end up making them again'

'The worst feeling is being forgotten by someone you will never forget. '

'Silence is my loudest cry. You’ll know I’m really hurt when I start ignoring you. '

indeed...the last one is so so so so true..and totally applies to me...

these lovely sentences are simply the reason why i am seen more in twitter than fb. =D

2011-11-05T02:39:00.001+08:00

maybe it is something some guys would do it too...
but..i just feel kind of sweet and filled with happiness and love when he bend down and help me put on my butterfly...=)

2011-11-02T16:43:00.001+08:00

i lost my butterfly...
my precious butterfly that he got me...
then...i realized... i cried the whole night...
cause i lost something precious to me...
it is gone forever.

2011-10-29T14:07:00.001+08:00

again and again...it just prove me right.
somehow, i am forced to give up.

2011-10-24T19:06:00.002+08:00

mayb the topics were too far fetched...
mayb i am too mature for you...
mayb it is nt time yet.

2011-10-23T15:14:00.001+08:00

i think i m crazy... i think i am crazy...
i have a strong urge to go Disneyland now...
no. not HK one.. but LA one...
I think i just gone out of mind...
probably too much of revision...

argh...DISNEYLAND! ='(

2011-10-20T00:59:00.001+08:00

i feel....

a little sad...
a little disappointed...
a little moody...
a little bored...

do you know?

2011-10-18T00:10:00.001+08:00

awww..my father is so cute and sweet.
he came to my room at 12 midnight on the dot, kiss my forehead and said happy birthday =))

2011-10-16T23:41:00.003+08:00

oh my... these songs just makes me want to tear... it just bring back all the memories...
oh great to be in this sch...
i am not a catholic nor a christian..
but..their songs just really touched your heart...=)
love my sch, love IJ =)

my school song.

One common IJ song running through all IJ schools

IJ Spirit burning bright

Fill this world with love and light

Light that shines for all to see

Love that sets our spirits free

IJ friendships through the years

Born of simple joys and tears

Something tells us deep inside

IJ friends are friends for life

Hold on to our dream of peace, don't stop believing

Our hearts and hands ever seeking, ever serving

Hold on to the sound of our friends all joyously singing

Our voices raised to the Lord our God above

Hold on to our dream (x2)

Hold on to our dream

Hold fast to the IJ dream

Hold on to our dream

2011-10-05T17:12:00.001+08:00

i only have one word to say.. hopeless...
SIGH...
i think..its really really time to think abt whether this is goin to work out..

2011-10-04T23:21:00.002+08:00

seriously....sometimes, i hate abt some guys are.. they think they are like the king...
sit there waiting to be served, sit there waiting for food, not giving a hand aft meals...
i mean.. hello~! doesnt mean u ppl are the ones paying n supporting behind, thn u are the biggest.. like a KING...
yes.. i agreed tt household shld be done by women.. BUT..TT DOESNT MEAN WE ARE NT TIRED TOO??!!!!????
i mean.. come on.. these bunch of guys shld just help out instead of sit there n wait to be served!
we are humans too.. we do get tired..even a little help here n there does help the women...
at the same time.. are u guys even so sure u are the one supporting everything behind???
crap...even if it is.. tts not the right way to treat us!
like the king... just complain abt things nt right.. come on!
u all so clever.. WHY NOT U ALL DO IT??
if nt.. just shut ur mouth and just appreciate what u alr have...

wake up!!!
sometimes.. i really had enough of guys damn stupid logic ..all these things shld be done by the women -_-
thn? u all born to sit there enjoy life wait to be served?
why not men and women task swap over?
tts when u all truly uds how tough IT IS.

2011-10-04T00:40:00.002+08:00

its strange.. this sem is much better than the previous one.
No projects, just reports. but of coz, bound to have modules which makes u go crazy..
something just seems nt right...
why are they flowing again and again uncontrollably?
just seems like there is alot to think about. many qns which u nv asked before..
those qns which u really have to think for ur future, for your own good..

its also time to think abt my future. after all, i am graduating in 1.5 yrs time.
time to learn to support the family, let parents lead a better life...
of coz, hope i lead a better life too...

and there is always like a thousand and one ppl asking me the same qns-s...
hello~ not that i dont want to give ans or say it...
the thing is...I M NOT THE ONE AVOIDING IT!
so.. STOP PUTTING ALL the pressure on me.

2011-10-01T15:47:00.002+08:00

like what i always said...
if you yourself dont even put in that little effort to help yourself...nobody else can help you...

sometimes..it just put me into no words to say anymore.. sigh.

2011-09-25T22:45:00.002+08:00

i finally understand the development of Xenopus after struggling with the textbook...
gosh... here come another one.. the Drosophila...
why make it so complicated? xenopus just means frog.. and drosophila just mean fruit fly.. -_-

2011-09-21T19:25:00.002+08:00

in life...people come and people go...
for some reasons...
meeting new ones, with benefits, looking for something new, no longer treasure...
this is just part of life...the real world.

its ok to screw my own.. but..i don't wish to screw up others...
when was the last time tears fall unknowingly in the public?
and it just couldn't stop.

where blasting of music comes into place..
letting music take over mind.

2011-09-18T23:00:00.002+08:00

not that i dont want to speak up my mind...
its just...i have so little confidence in mself, tt i don't even trust myself...

2011-09-15T00:06:00.000+08:00

i hate to feel tired.. it makes me feel frustrated w myself...

2011-09-14T00:06:00.002+08:00

he talks just like harry potter...
his super British accent makes almost 300 ppl go crazy...
super heavy content + super British accent... gosh...
its all abt being patient w this module...
drosophila, frog, C.elegans...

******

in this world, i can never find a second person that treat me like how u did...
thank you...
i smurf u =))

2011-09-12T21:47:00.001+08:00

exciting or what? tml i m going bukit timah to see plants!

2011-09-11T21:42:00.002+08:00

it feels good to be able to help others when i can...=)

don't require them to repay u back.. but somehow...it makes u feel happy that u can help others =D

2011-09-11T00:49:00.000+08:00

time to make some changes for my blog...

2011-09-08T00:11:00.001+08:00

FAN SI LE! FAN SI LE!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-08-24T22:45:00.000+08:00

sometimes...i find myself quite stupid to be waiting for something that never happen...
why m i always so dumb?

2011-08-24T22:36:00.002+08:00

recently...i have a fren who asked me...
'why are u always laughing even its a small joke or even when its not so funny?'

my ans is..
becoz...this are the times when i can really smile... and forget abt eveything unhappy...
even when i met a fren...i just feel good abt it and treasure it...

2011-08-24T22:19:00.000+08:00

i really give up...lets leave it all to fate...

everything happens for a reason... in this case... it is too...

2011-08-23T23:55:00.002+08:00

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BEN SI LE!!!!!!!!!!! BEN SI LEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-08-20T13:46:00.000+08:00

will i be blind one day,if it keep going on like that every night?

2011-08-04T14:00:00.001+08:00

why ppl only like to save the situation only when they find sth amiss? it is just too late...

xin tong le.. ye si le... zhen de si le..

2011-07-30T17:37:00.000+08:00

why? why did i dream of her again?
it just feel so real...

2011-07-24T23:05:00.000+08:00

sometimes i really wonder how impt m i... to you...

2011-07-08T00:47:00.001+08:00

I M SO LOOKIN FORWARD TO MY TRIP! but week aft my trip..the following week is gonna be bad...

2011-07-02T01:43:00.002+08:00

a person attitude towards a thing actually reflects how a person feels towards that particular thing...
the initiative and the motivation...
when it is not in your mind, it is just not inside, no matter how much others try to help, and even give u a hand...
it is tt attitude that will shows the final result...
u may not be the best, but at least u learnt, u try, u do ur research to find out more...
but when u are not even interested in putting in tt little effort...shld we say...lets just forget it?
helpers at times do get tired and find themselves a busybody or feeling like they are giving pressure...
mayb its time to stand at the side, stay quiet and observe, how much of motivation and interest u actually have...

after all....at the end of the day... we learnt tt it is our own life aft all..
just dont regret whatever we have done to it and how we shape it...

2011-06-25T00:00:00.003+08:00

life is good =) seeing you almost everyday..^^

everything is going so well now...

i m a happy girl =)

2011-06-12T23:42:00.002+08:00

i know i shldnt think abt it...
i shldnt start thinkin abt it...
everything is ok...

it is a kind a phobia... it just keep following me..keep on keep on...
tt scene just keep repeatin n repeatin...

i wan to..but i just cant erase it...i just cant..
i just need continuous assurance...
and hope u really tell me everything...
even though there its nth...

2011-06-09T11:57:00.000+08:00

this is so so so so ...omg....
it makes u wanna tear and feel really happy for them =)

2011-06-08T22:43:00.005+08:00

when we were young, we wish that we can grow up quickly and get some freedom...
when we start to hit into our 20's, we wish.. we nv grow up and go back to our younger days...
the younger days..was simple, happy and carefree...
we used to complain how stress we were in secondary or even poly...
but..when we passed tt stage.. we tend to realise...how much tougher it is now...
thn.. we start to find ourselves...goin into each and every diff stage of life..to start a new chapter w new challenges...

sometimes... you try find tt your life now is so complicated and tough tt u hope there is a time machine to go back to the time when we were the happiest...
one of the happiest moment of my life..is my secondary life...

was packin my things today... and i found my secondary 5 student organiser...
an organiser which i cant bear to throw it..
i opened it...flipped it... and start to laugh to myself...
how silly i was in the past... =D
when u realised..life is just so simple ...
practically anything i had in my head and in my life tt time..was all in the book...

love my sch, my teachers, my friends...

i donn y the pics doesnt flip in the end when i alr flip it! argh!

tests!!!!!!!!!!!! when we used to hate it coz it seems endless...

muahahhah! i m quite positive last time ok! and kind of...crazy too.. hahah!

mon - fri all packed! haha! i m quite busy in sec actually..

haa... used to be my favourite..awww!

ok.. i m pretty crazy n silly last time.. hahahhaa!!!!!!!!

can you imagine how colourful my whole organiser is???? haha

oh yay! my ice cream! the yellow one! =DDDD

weiling wrote this! hahahah! my book is filled w many fren's writing!! hehehe

this is really sweet... love it ^ _ ^

written by ting! ahhaha! sweet!

ling si...i have no idea why i name myself ling si..its quite nice! hahaha! but i have no idea where it came from...

my colourful and filled w love organiser.. hehee... =D

*****

2011-06-08T22:33:00.002+08:00

i heard tt results are out during midnight!
OMG! i wish i dont know...i actually forgotten until joyce dropped me a msg sayin gl! oh no~ =(

*****

here comes drama marathons!!!!! yay!

grey's anatomy season 7! my all time favourite! love it love it!

one hk nice drama! a police and students drama! =))))

2011-06-04T22:24:00.002+08:00

future?
i really have no idea what lies inside e future...

future lies in our hand...it depends on how we shape it.. how we wan it be like...

2011-05-31T01:14:00.002+08:00

好幸福啊。。。because.. i have you... ^_^

2011-05-25T00:32:00.001+08:00

saw this video on the news! omg! its really nice... guess he really spend lots of time doin it...

2011-05-25T00:19:00.001+08:00

its here alr....just so near...
i m scare...
really scare...

2011-05-22T15:03:00.001+08:00

suddenly...i hope tt it is night now..
the darkness..to let it all out...
i m losing it...

why dont let me bring my phone along? ='(

2011-05-22T01:13:00.000+08:00

OH YES! i m back into my greys anatomy season 7! =)))))

2011-05-22T01:00:00.002+08:00

it was a great day today...
no studies to worry abt... nth to think abt...

if only life goes on like tt forever...no worries, no troubles.

3 more days...
time flies...
will anything change?

2011-05-21T02:26:00.001+08:00

i m in deep shit for virology...sigh
bound to fail.. argh! =(
just..dont think too much now.. its all over....

in less than a week time...
i m afraid....

2011-05-20T00:55:00.002+08:00

8 hrs and 5 mins to my 6th, which is also the last paper of yr 2 sem 2!
BS 208 Virology

Finally i m COMING TO AN END OF YR 2! hell...

i m totally dead beat w all the intense studies for the past 2 weeks...
3 hrs of slp is killing me...

2011-05-19T00:38:00.000+08:00

12 hrs and 20 mins to my 5th paper...
MB 107 Biz law

ITS COMING TO AN END...JY!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-05-18T00:32:00.001+08:00

9 hr to my 4th paper...
BS 206 BIOPHYSICS...

a paper tt sure bound to fail..
its just a matter of... how bad.. and how bell curve helps u...

oh well..pray hard n hope for some miracle to happen...
but.. this doesnt happen to TORRES 's MODULE!

2011-05-13T01:51:00.000+08:00

7 hrs and 10 mins to my 3rd paper...
Bs 210 Bioinformatics

2011-05-11T23:06:00.001+08:00

everytime i attempted to say something more serious...
it just seems like no attention was given to it.

just breathe in and out n let it go...it is not the first time anyway.

2011-05-11T20:40:00.002+08:00

PACE.
it makes me afraid, panic and feel a lot more closer to the day....

no matter hw busy i m now...
i just cant help it to stop thinkin...
i can practically imagine the whole scenario...

i like to watch greys anatomy..but not in real life situaiton....

2011-05-11T02:38:00.001+08:00

6 hrs and 20 mins to my second paper...
BS 207 Immunology....
goodluck to me...
just so much content to absorb..and i cant rem...

2 more weeks later..at this timing...
i probably cant slp...fear.

2011-05-09T01:25:00.001+08:00

7 hrs and 35mins to my first paper of yr 2 sem 2...
bs 209 Advanced Biochemistry....

jy!

2011-05-07T01:47:00.002+08:00

m i lucky or r u unlucky to meet me?
i dunn abt u..
but i know i am lucky enough to be able to meet you.

dote me. pamper me. tolerate me.
only u do =)

i dunn what will the future be like..
but i just want to say.. thank you for everything.

2011-05-06T01:41:00.001+08:00

after 14 hrs of advanced biochemistry..i decided to give it a break..
argh~ too many NADPH , Co2, h20 in my head!

change module....biz law < 3

2011-05-06T00:45:00.001+08:00

chicken essences, bird nest, black chicken soup...

my task is to take all these to boost my immune system n stay healthy till tt day comes...

2011-05-05T17:19:00.000+08:00

I M BORED ...I M BORED of studyin biochemistry.. argh!

4 more days to first paper...

2011-05-04T02:09:00.000+08:00

sigh...i m extremely tired...can i slp early tonight?
i just feel tt i had enough of the TQ!!!! I HATE TORRES!!!!!!!!
from the start of this module ....online quizzes at 11 pm, notes not loaded on lect day, liposome test and TQ! ALL THESE R TAKIN MOST OF OUR TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hw would u actually feel..when u doin lipo test.. spending 3 hrs..but still in level 2 of the bloody quiz? still tryin to do trial n error, lookin for ans....and thn the whole damn quiz has 70 level! NUTS OR WHAT?! yes..indeed..its a qns bank..but its just too many qns in the bank!

NOW TQ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i guess TQ have like a million qns in the qns bank?
every day i do..i have accumulated a new sets of qns n ans...
again..trial n error.. trial n error...
how it feels to be in level 6 alr...and thn U DROP BACK TO LEVEL 0!!!!!! -_-
up up dw dw up up dw dw...i m back into level 0..
and this time round..there is 80 levels...
fun or something??????

I JUST FEEL I REALLY HAD ENOUGH OF THIS TQ !!!!!!!!!!
spendin so much time on it and not being able to concentrate fully on exams!!!!!!
really!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-05-03T03:14:00.001+08:00

busy busy busy! I M SO BUSY! argh!
just 6 more days to my first paper... 17 more days to my freedom and 23 more days to sth which i hope it nv comes...

its a kind of mixed feelings...
u wan exams to end..but not tt day to come.. bt eventually when exams end...that day is drawing near....
however, its kind of good too...
as for now.. i dun have the time to think much abt it..nor think abt it..imaging the situation...
i m really packed w many things! OMG
biophysics biophysics n virology..been rotating these 2 day!
hell! like so so so so much content! argh~
and penalty marking for virology paper!
HOW AWESOME IS TT....

*****

argh! and one thing.. election is here at the wrong time!
dunn y..i seem to be addicted to GE and the rallies!
ESP OPPOSITION PARTIES! but anyway..nobody actually listen to PAP's one... hahah!
many issues were drawn out....which actually all r facts....
housing price increasing, more foreign workers, 7% GST etc etc...
probably this is y many ppl r supporting the opposition parties now...
somehow...everything just target government and they are all facts...

and govt is 'kind of cheating'...
i stay in hougang and i m AMK GRC...
reason being....hougang have TOO MANY WORKER'S PARTY SUPPORTER...
hence... they moved us to AMK GRC which has many PAP supporters!
so smart... trying to buffer us ard and neutralize it...

many said.... its abt the future, the govt did helps us in the past to be what we r now...but now its a diff thing, we are tokin abt the future..blah blah blah....
i came across this status in FB..
'' I love the way life in Singapore has been: stable, safe, prosperous.. I read w much fear when the 20s r proclaiming their support for opposition cuz they dun like PAP! But can e opp parties serve as well in e long run? ''

the thing is.. its true also....
opposition are good in sayin and targeting abt those issues which Singaporeans r very sensitive to...
but...just by sayin....does it helps? do they really have a plan?
why not tell us their plan other than sayin let our voice being heard?
they say it was to let our voice to be heard....the thing is...in the parliament, even w more opposition inside... govt is still the 'biggest' ...
i guess..no matter what... things wont make big diff...
they wont reduce ministers pay, wont decrease 7% GST...
guess how many more opposition there is in the parliament have nt much diff..as majority is still govt...
sigh.. however... tts the fact....eventually we still 'cant be heard much'
nth much to 'fight' about..

not a strong PAP nor oppoisiton supporter..
but i just think tt its a fact tt no matter what...parliament is still filled w govt ppl
but oso, i agreed to whatever issues tt opposition parties have mentioned.

this coming election results is goin to be damn exciting! haha!
as for AMK GRC...PAP is sure to win w PM Lee...

2011-04-29T01:02:00.003+08:00

i m tired i m tired i m tired...
cant cant cant...
i need to study!
study study study!
my target is 3am! ICANDOIT!

2011-04-28T00:19:00.001+08:00

its 12.19am now.. and i m dead beat!
how m i goin to survive through the night?
i m alr feelin tired even before the start of the battle... argh~

2011-04-27T14:03:00.003+08:00

WHO INVENTED BIOPHYSICS??????????!!!!!!!!?????????????

I READ N READ N LISTEN N LISTEN TO RECORDED LECTS..I STILL HAVE NO IDEA WAT IT IS ABT -_-

WHO INVENTED THIS MODULE N ALL THIS CONTENT IN BIOPHYSICS????!!!!!!??????????

great..i have no idea hw to pass this module when i can even get 10/100 for CA.. great job. -_-

2011-04-23T19:36:00.001+08:00

sometimes..i just think tt i give ppl ard me too much problems and trouble..tt i wish...if only they haven met me...all this wont happen...

if only....

2011-04-20T01:06:00.002+08:00

everytime i stepped into the ********...i start to think..y me? y do i have to spend money on all this? y do i have to go through this till my life ends? y such a burden?

i know its a fact n i shld accept it.. i just dont uds..y god choose to pick me...
everything happens for a reason...and what is the reason behind all this?

2011-04-19T02:01:00.002+08:00

i m just treating u the way u are treating me...
u give me so attitude.. so i m just giving u back attitude...
sorry.. but i dun own u a living!
i had enough of ur crap...and i m tired of treating ppl nice and ppl treat me like shit!

*****

exactly 3 more week to my first paper....
tons n tons of things to study..
somehow..this sem just seem so so so much tougher...
with modules tt are so complicated and totally cant be understand..sigh...

abt one mth to complete my exams...
thn..another one mth plus to the days which i hope it nv comes....
which...could really change things ard me...
my confidence. myself.
however..i m just tryin my best not to think too much abt it...
i m really tryin my best to stay strong...
but..it is really not easy...

*****

u know i m upset...so u try to make me happy...
u know i m goin to be scare, so u try to spend more time w me...
somethings u dont like, but to make me happy u decided to give it a try...

to make me happy, u try to give me whatever u can...
nobody is able to dote me like how u do...

2011-04-17T14:05:00.001+08:00

eating alone. sch alone. home alone. sleep alone.
from the start..fated to be alone.

2011-04-11T22:18:00.002+08:00

EXACTLY HW I M FEELING NOW! its a video meant for SBS (school of biological sciences) Year 2 students...
and these are the modules which i m current taking...
so so so..true....
check it out ^^
life in NTU is simply CRAZY!

however..this time round..i m alittle diff... i m not so lookin forward for exams to end...

2011-04-06T01:28:00.002+08:00

i m scare..to wake up finding myself w **** that comes in the center above the heart.
no more tubes.no more spag tops. no more pretty tops. just t-shirts.............

really...why i have to go through all this?